依然 ，
失败 。
新的一年， 跟上一年，
其实 ，
也没甚两样 。
还是那句 ，
失败 ！

依然，
想念。
对 ，
我依然想念着她 。

没甚么特别 ，
没什么另外 ，
生活依旧 ，

无奈...

拜拜 。
有人曾说过 ，
拜拜是为了让烟 ，
飘到神的耳里，
神才能为我们达成心愿 。

那，
抽烟的人，
是否也是让他想说的话，
静悄悄的，
随烟，
飘到她的耳中呢 ？

我 ，
打开门，
不是要出门，
是要走出回忆 。

我 ，
低下头 ，
不是要绑鞋带 ，
绑住的是思念 。

呵 ，
无奈 。

Random post...

Should I be changing my blogging style ?
Hmm...
I'm already used to this type of style ,
sad and meaningless .

but then ,
I'm out of words .
at least for now...
I'm totally blank .

I'm not a romantic kind of guy ,
but ,
at least i wanna make the word 'I love you' more lifely in this blog .

but ,
I know that's not happening ,
because i ain't got a person to tell .

I lOVE YOU...

Lonely birthday...~

Beer ,
is going down my throat ,
'Burp'...
This shouldn't be happening on my birthday right ?
But ,
it just happened .

Happy birthday ,
I said to myself .

No cake ,
No friends ,
No nothing .

Only beer is here by my side ,
accompanying me ,
on my birthday...

When an angel hurt her wings ,
I dont mind stay by her side ,
just to protect her .

When she recovers ,
I'll let her go ,
let her go to where she really belongs .

She flies back to the moon ,
playing her moon river ,
and I'll always be listening to it .

Let go ,
when you need to .
Hold tight ,
when you care .

Cheers ! for loneliness...

The beer ,
was left on the table .
no ,
It's been forgotten .

The scent of the beer ,
was no longer there .
And ,
the taste is starting to worn off...

Loneliness ,
Cheers !

It’s gone

Hey ,

Where are you ?  I miss you…

Wait…

You went missing…

Err….

‘CAN YOU HEAR ME ?’ I yelled .

What I heard was…

‘CAN YOU HEAR ME ?’ “CAN YOU HEAR ME ?’…

it was just echo…

Exam

Exam with tips all around really sucks...
If tips weren't spread all around the school
I wouldn't be spending all my time reading those god-damn tips if it doesn't exist .
Damn it !
I'm afraid of losing to other people .
Funny ehh...hah...
If everyone have the tips ,
they'll read like mad to memorise those so called tips .
If i dint read those tips ,
I would most probably lose .
So...
I forced myself to study...
and the result is ,

Time wasted...-.-

Endless tale

The night sky ,
full of sadness and depression ,

I'm standing alone ,
on a street near the sea .

Under the street light ,
I seems so small ,
and tiny .

I'm waiting for you .

People are getting lesser ,
as it's getting late .

You never appear .
Never in my life .

My story will continue ,
in loneliness .

It'll be an,
endless tale...

I love , no ! I like...

I love your footsteps ,
I love to follow it around .

I love your small little finger ,
I love to hold it tightly and let you feel warm .

I love to hug you ,
I love it because you once told me that you love the feeling .

I love you smile ,
I love to see it when i'm upset and it will cheer up my day .

I love .
No !
I like....

Virus

Rumer says ,
there's a disease that could turn blood black ,
instead of just blood ,
it turns your whole heart ,
whole mind ,
black .

It's loneliness....

This disease has no cure ,
It'll not cause you your life ,
but ,
It'll take over your mind ,
your emotions .

I'm now exposed to this disease ,
I'm in the final stage .

No one can save me ,
No one will know how i feel .

This is the symptom of this disease .

Happy Birthday

Hey ,
I know it's kinda lame ,
But ,
Happy birthday .

Make a wish ,
And it'll certainly come true .
Cause ,
It's your birthday...

Take a deep breath ,
blow off the candle on the cake .
It means that ,
you're now 16 .

Be happy ,
Grab all the present from all your friends .
Appriciate it ,
though some of it may not mean much to you .

Anyway ,
I know you might not see this ,
but ,
I'll still say it .
I'm sorry i can't be by your side when you need me ,
I'm sorry to have hurt you so badly ,
I'm sorry that i can't say happy birthday to you face to face ,
I'm sorry that i've so many sorry that i've to say .

I'm Sorry...

But ,
be happy ,
It's your birthday.....

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Party

Party ,
it should be happy ,
it should make people laugh ,
it should change a person's mood .

But ,
for me ,
every party is missing something ,
it's missing something important that could make me laugh .


You ,
were the reason .
You ,
had vanished in my life ,
You locked my heart up ,
and i couldn't find the key to unlocked it .

Pass by

In a crowd of people ,
I'm so lost .
The thing that caught my eyes was ,
you wearing your plane white T-shirt ,
but still ,
you were gorgeous .

You ,
may not notice me ,
You ,
may not know that i've pass by .

I'm in a corner ,
blocked by piles of people .
I'm noticing you ,
but you wont realise .

I ,
Belong to the lonely world .

My shadow ,
never ever appear in your life .

I ,
will only be passing by your life ,
without you noticing me .

Feelings

My handphone ,
stayed in my pocket for the whole day .
My outbox were full of your name ,
It represents how much i need you by my side .
But today ,
It dint rang .

Yesterday ,
I left all mt feelings on the bus ,
and the bus just drove away ,
so quickly ,
Only trails of dust were left behind .

Does this means i could carry on my life without feeling sad or happy ?
I hope i could...

......

I've fail to come up with a real life post...
Sorry....

I'm back...

Back...

Time to face the truth again...
After enjoying for the past few days ,
I'm here again...

I live in a miserable life ,
an endless story .

In my life ,
There's no prince ,
no sleeping beauty ,
no love story ,
and there's no happily ever after .

I'm just a frog ,
a frog that never turn into a prince .

This is my life ,
I'll continue writting it ,
until the very end .

Qualification

The tired smile ,
meaningless concern ,
and those slight feel of love ,
I tell myself ,
It's all fake .

I'm tired ,
really really tired .

There's nobody that wanna face the truth ,
the cruel and unfair truth .

I disguist myself behing the truth  ,
perhaps ,
I obtain something better .

I lost my happiness ,
joy ,
and how to smile truely with my heart .

I lost interest in everything ,
starting to look down at myself .

I realised ,
I'm not qualify to love anyone ,
because ,
I don't even love myself .

Rain

The rain is getting heavier ,
I look upon the sky ,
rain wets my glasses .

My vision is getting blur .
Rain water is dropping on me .
My body temperature is getting lower .
I'm starting to feel cold .
It seems my heart had lost it's temperature .
My fingers are freezing in the cold ,
struggling .
My pulses are getting weaker .

Am i still alive ?
It's like my soul had already been ripped off ,
I'm starting to calm down .

When i woke up ,
the surrounding atmosphere is still lonely ,
Haiz....

Heartless

My heart ,
was in the corner ,
it's trapped by the shadow ,
and vanished in the air .

Where's my heart ?

Sweets ,
can't calm me .

Caffeine ,
can't make me happy .

Alchohol ,
can't take away my loneliness .

My brain had stopped working...
Cause ,
she took my heart away .

Stary night

Used to ,
lie on the beach ,
and enjoy the beautiful night sky .

Used to ,
hold your hands ,
and tell that i love you .

Used to ,
say don't worry ,
I'll always be there for you .

The moon is still decorating the plain night sky ,
The stars are still accompanying the lonely moon ,
I'm still there ,
waiting for the one i love .

The only difference is ,
you were not there ,
by my side .

Clown...

Carrying an umbrella ,
Under the heavy rain .

The mask on my face ,
A poker face that have a red heart on it .
My sight was getting blur ,
because of the annoying rain .

Sounds of happiness spread out of a house ,
The party is going to start soon .

I , a clown ,
carrying an umbrella ,
under the rain ,
entertaining pedestrian ,

I  enjoy the happiness alone behind the scene ,
enjoy the loneliness ,
Only the rain accompanies me .

No one knows that ,
the face under the mask ,
were always sad ,
And ,
always full of loneliness .

To love....

To love somebody ,
It depends on how you are going to love that person ,
It depends on how much you love that person...
You love that person more ,
you'll get hurt easily...
You love yourself more ,
means you are not loving that person truely...

It's always so hard...
This is LOVE...
LOVE is always omplicated ,
but everybody is still desperate of getting in it...

Never

Happiness ,
never came .

I ,
never felt happy before .

Meeting you ,
and being ignored ,
I tell myself ,

'I've never been loved'...

Holiday's around the corner .
Time to take a break ,
and take of my mask .

Laughing at myself ,
in front of the mirror .

Vision of myself is getting blur .
I tell myself ,
I will never love again ,
Never .
I'm just gonna live alone ,
in this lonely world .

I ,
live for nothing .

Is it time for me to leave ?
I don't belong to this wold anymore .

I'm a devil ,
I'll continue to live alone .
Like that ,
It will be better for everybody .

Leaving me ,
You'll me happier...

Promises

Promises ,
is just a few short letters .
Once i've promise to ,
promised to wait .

No matter how's the ending ,
No matter how I'll feel ,
I will still be waiting .

Never regret of making that decision ,
Never regret of loving you .

No matter how it will ends  ,
the past i had with you is enough .
I appriciate what you've gave me .

I'll always be waiting for you...

Loser...

I'm still a total loser .
Cause ,
I love you...

Memory

Memory .
It's touching than anything ,
But it makes me heartache than anything .

Stretches out my hand ,
trying to retrieve something .
What i caught ,
was only some broken pieces of my memory .

I'm working hard ,
trying to forget those memories ,
no matter happy ones ,
or sad ones .

You ,
living in your future .

While I ,
living in the past .

Titleless....

I can't spit out any words anymore ,
my brain was like a piece of plain white paper ,
Drown by blankness....

Lying on a croach ,
under the bright lights ,
I close my eyes .

Nerves in my brain stopped functioning ,
My tear gland was suddenly out of my control for some reasons ,
Somehow , I'm lost ;

What do i really want ?
Before i collapse ,
How long more can i still stand___...

'Be together' ?

The word 'I Love You'...
seems fermiliar ?
of cause...
Some of you maybe saying it everyday...

To love a person is simple,
To hate a person is also simple.

But,
To be together with a person you love is a different story...

I sweared...
I wont let myself fall in LOVE again...
Because,
I've lost faith of myself...

I'm desperate of having true LOVE,
but my heart wont let me...

My heart had been locked by chains of destiny that are unbreakable...
Who holds the key that could unlock my heart ?

七月 十四 农历鬼节

呵呵。。。
什么是鬼 ？

Ghost
In folklore, fiction, philosophy, and popular culture, a ghost is the soul or spirit of a deceased person, taken to be capable of appearing in visible form or otherwise manifesting itself to the living. Descriptions of the apparition of ghosts vary widely: the mode of manifestation can range from an invisible presence to translucent or wispy shapes, to realistic, life-like visions. The deliberate attempt to contact the spirit of a deceased person is known as necromancy, or in spiritism as a séance.




The belief in manifestations of the spirits of the dead is widespread, dating back to animism or ancestor worship in pre-literate cultures. Certain religious practices—funeral rites, exorcisms, and some practices of spiritualism and ritual magic—are specifically designed to appease the spirits of the dead. Ghosts are generally described as solitary essences that haunt particular locations, objects, or people with which they were associated in life, though stories of phantom armies, ghost trains, phantom ships, and even ghost animals have also been recounted
[copy from wikipedia]

鬼真的存在 ？
没人晓得。。。

Time...

The clock ticks ,
But time never past...
Sun rise and sun set ,
But the shadow remain...

I once heard sounds ,
but now silence...

Time ain't the cure ,
Coz my brain wont let me forget...

寂寞的滋味？

你知道寂寞的滋味吗 ？
突兀的开场白，我知道。
奇怪的问题，无解的答案，完全没有道理可言。

这个城市，灰暗，潮湿，充满了寂寞的气息。
即使夜间五光十色，将黑夜渲染得如同白昼般。
寄寞的触须，仍旧悄悄伸展到每个角落。

宣闹的人行道，
尽情戏耍的小丑们，
一张张精致的假面。。。
所有人都在扮演着自己的角色。

大哭大笑的小丑们，沉浸在酒池肉林中迷失的羔羊，
沉睡而不敢醒来面对现实。



是因为面对不了现实世界的残酷无情，
与，
寂寞。。。

真的，很爱你。。。

两杯热咖啡，心情是等待,
只是，我等的人，不会来。
如果还有机会，我真的想亲口对你说声‘对不起’，
对不起，我没好好爱你，
可我就是爱你，还爱你，
对不起，真的，
我 爱你。。。

对不起，我爱你。。。

有很长的一段时间，我不能翻阅我们的照片，
因为我不想哭，对着照片掉眼泪不适合我。。。

有很长的一段时间，我没有办法去到我们曾经去过的场所，
因为回忆太挤，而当众嚎啕大哭会破坏型相。


有很长的一段时间，我不能够说去你的名字，
因为我知道我会哭，未语而 泪先流。

我不知道干什么我要这样，人前欢笑人后落泪，
我只知道你对我而言不太一样，
不，

是很不一样。。。

过去。。。

过去的事。。。
还牢牢的挂在脑海。。。

当初。。。
从尝试变成认真。。。
然后。。。
我得到了。。。

可是。。。
我没珍惜。。。

所以。。。
我失去了她。。。

如，过去的事可以改变。。。
那该多好。。。

如，历史可以重演。。。
那。。。真的会很好。。。


[对不起，我爱你]

灰色 ？

和你一起。。。
世界总是色彩宾纷的。。。

你带给我色彩。。。
让我认识红色，青色，黄色。。。
但。。。
你为和要那么惨忍的把他带走。。。

如今。。。
我的世界只剩下。。。
灰色。。。

Dear...Could you please come back ?

Dear....
Could you please come back ?
Please ?
I'll do anything for it...Really anything...

I just want you back by my side...
want you to hold my hand...
want you to kiss my lips...

Please , come back...




But....
I know deep in my heart....
You'll only come back to me in my dream...

I love you....

Golf with the thong's....xD

wake up 6 in the morning...(tired)
take bath...

xxxxxxxxxx

Reach saw's house...
His house looks much more better after the renovation...

xxxxxxxxxx

Haha...xD
late again as usual...
Made harue and heng waited for almost half an hour...(sorry nia)
Ok... continue on our journey...

xxxxxxxxxx

Reach there at bout 8...
Not many ppl...
Same old coach...

xxxxxxxxxx

Started playing....xD
Heng took 15 min to hit her 1st ball...
Bravo...xP

xxxxxxxxxx
Harue was good....
At least...better than me....
Hahaha....xD

xxxxxxxxxxx
I'm not talented...
but...i'm much more better than Heng....
Hahaha...xP

xxxxxxxxxxx
As for saw....
Errm.....
He's good at any sports...=.=

xxxxxxxxxxx
took bath....
went for lunch...

xxxxxxxxxxx
That's all...



[A boring post]
Anyway.....
Still misses her a lot....

悲伤的定义是什么


每个人的说法都不同

有些人整天说

要驳酒自杀阿

什么活得空虚阿

什么生活邋遢

什么眼泪流干什么的

这些是所谓的“悲伤”吗？





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我觉得

悲伤其实

并不是言语能形容的

虽然我本身也是

但是

真正的悲伤

根本不需要伪装

根本不需要显示出来

而是轻易就感觉得到的

你越是伪装着开心

悲伤就越笼罩着你

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那

悲伤是什么颜色的

你想想看

灰色？蓝色？





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白色?





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还是黑色？





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不知道

说不定

是无色的

无色无味

无形

你看不见

也捉摸不到

只能感觉到

放空你的脑袋

躲进你的房间里

躺着

对着天花板

关着眼睛

聆听自己的心跳声

和微微的呼吸声

想想看

现在的你

目标是什么

为什么你活着

当你开始迷茫时

当你脑里有许多烦恼涌现时

那

是悲伤么？

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发现越来越没有灵感了

剩下的全是胡言乱语

天哪

怎么了

到底怎么了

灵感呢

失控了

一定是坏掉了

一定

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I'm new ?

Dudes and dudes....
I'm new....
Nothing to talk bout...
Boring...~ So i decided to make this blog...