Virus

Rumer says ,
there's a disease that could turn blood black ,
instead of just blood ,
it turns your whole heart ,
whole mind ,
black .

It's loneliness....

This disease has no cure ,
It'll not cause you your life ,
but ,
It'll take over your mind ,
your emotions .

I'm now exposed to this disease ,
I'm in the final stage .

No one can save me ,
No one will know how i feel .

This is the symptom of this disease .

Happy Birthday

Hey ,
I know it's kinda lame ,
But ,
Happy birthday .

Make a wish ,
And it'll certainly come true .
Cause ,
It's your birthday...

Take a deep breath ,
blow off the candle on the cake .
It means that ,
you're now 16 .

Be happy ,
Grab all the present from all your friends .
Appriciate it ,
though some of it may not mean much to you .

Anyway ,
I know you might not see this ,
but ,
I'll still say it .
I'm sorry i can't be by your side when you need me ,
I'm sorry to have hurt you so badly ,
I'm sorry that i can't say happy birthday to you face to face ,
I'm sorry that i've so many sorry that i've to say .

I'm Sorry...

But ,
be happy ,
It's your birthday.....

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Party

Party ,
it should be happy ,
it should make people laugh ,
it should change a person's mood .

But ,
for me ,
every party is missing something ,
it's missing something important that could make me laugh .


You ,
were the reason .
You ,
had vanished in my life ,
You locked my heart up ,
and i couldn't find the key to unlocked it .

Pass by

In a crowd of people ,
I'm so lost .
The thing that caught my eyes was ,
you wearing your plane white T-shirt ,
but still ,
you were gorgeous .

You ,
may not notice me ,
You ,
may not know that i've pass by .

I'm in a corner ,
blocked by piles of people .
I'm noticing you ,
but you wont realise .

I ,
Belong to the lonely world .

My shadow ,
never ever appear in your life .

I ,
will only be passing by your life ,
without you noticing me .

Feelings

My handphone ,
stayed in my pocket for the whole day .
My outbox were full of your name ,
It represents how much i need you by my side .
But today ,
It dint rang .

Yesterday ,
I left all mt feelings on the bus ,
and the bus just drove away ,
so quickly ,
Only trails of dust were left behind .

Does this means i could carry on my life without feeling sad or happy ?
I hope i could...

......

I've fail to come up with a real life post...
Sorry....

I'm back...

Back...

Time to face the truth again...
After enjoying for the past few days ,
I'm here again...

I live in a miserable life ,
an endless story .

In my life ,
There's no prince ,
no sleeping beauty ,
no love story ,
and there's no happily ever after .

I'm just a frog ,
a frog that never turn into a prince .

This is my life ,
I'll continue writting it ,
until the very end .

Qualification

The tired smile ,
meaningless concern ,
and those slight feel of love ,
I tell myself ,
It's all fake .

I'm tired ,
really really tired .

There's nobody that wanna face the truth ,
the cruel and unfair truth .

I disguist myself behing the truth  ,
perhaps ,
I obtain something better .

I lost my happiness ,
joy ,
and how to smile truely with my heart .

I lost interest in everything ,
starting to look down at myself .

I realised ,
I'm not qualify to love anyone ,
because ,
I don't even love myself .

Rain

The rain is getting heavier ,
I look upon the sky ,
rain wets my glasses .

My vision is getting blur .
Rain water is dropping on me .
My body temperature is getting lower .
I'm starting to feel cold .
It seems my heart had lost it's temperature .
My fingers are freezing in the cold ,
struggling .
My pulses are getting weaker .

Am i still alive ?
It's like my soul had already been ripped off ,
I'm starting to calm down .

When i woke up ,
the surrounding atmosphere is still lonely ,
Haiz....

Heartless

My heart ,
was in the corner ,
it's trapped by the shadow ,
and vanished in the air .

Where's my heart ?

Sweets ,
can't calm me .

Caffeine ,
can't make me happy .

Alchohol ,
can't take away my loneliness .

My brain had stopped working...
Cause ,
she took my heart away .

Stary night

Used to ,
lie on the beach ,
and enjoy the beautiful night sky .

Used to ,
hold your hands ,
and tell that i love you .

Used to ,
say don't worry ,
I'll always be there for you .

The moon is still decorating the plain night sky ,
The stars are still accompanying the lonely moon ,
I'm still there ,
waiting for the one i love .

The only difference is ,
you were not there ,
by my side .

Clown...

Carrying an umbrella ,
Under the heavy rain .

The mask on my face ,
A poker face that have a red heart on it .
My sight was getting blur ,
because of the annoying rain .

Sounds of happiness spread out of a house ,
The party is going to start soon .

I , a clown ,
carrying an umbrella ,
under the rain ,
entertaining pedestrian ,

I  enjoy the happiness alone behind the scene ,
enjoy the loneliness ,
Only the rain accompanies me .

No one knows that ,
the face under the mask ,
were always sad ,
And ,
always full of loneliness .